Way to much rain … seriously … we can’t even bring out the horses because there’s is water everywhere. I can’t wait the rain to stop … and i really really hope it will be dry again until august 12. when my Festivals starting …. Mera Luna and summerbreeze.
Since last week it’s raining non stop, it’s so annoying. Everything drowns in water 💦 and it’s only 13-17 degree outside … so lassie got a rain coat, so she does not get so wet when she has to lie on the cold floors in the stable or the riding hall. Also the horses are not really amused to go out or even have a lot of motivation to train. As you can see in the pictures below, she threw around all the stuff …. 🐎💁🏻
Last weekend my university friend visited me at the stable and took some photos while riding. That was fun because we are definitely no photo models at all! We had some fights because the captain wasn’t really concentrated, everything was way to exiting for him so we kinda struggled getting him to run proper like a dressage horse he actually is.
He has some expressions on his face that made my friend laugh while taking the pictures and me afterwards, sometimes he’s such a derp 😀
Wir tun uns mit dem fellwechel etwas schwer. Es schaut aus als hätte er Pilz am Kopf … aber es sind nur Hautschüppchen die sich lösen, leider klappt das nicht so richtig, deshalb kriegt er jetzt Zinksalbe auf die Stellen.
Nebenbei muss ich zugeben dass ich mich total in die neue Schabracke verliebt hab, die ich Anfang April bei unserem reiterflohmarkt abgestaubt hab 💕
so it´s been a while since I posted something on this blog… I had a hard time struggeling with Depression and Feeling very uncomfortable up to nearly destroing my relationship because of my wrecked mind and suffering spirit. Nevermind I don´t want to go into detail with this.
It´s February now … kinda sad I didn´t started earlier. But here there are my new years resolutions.
#1 keep on your blog… and write in english so more people can underestand you (don´t mind my crappy english I´ll work on it)
#2 change your style … so I have the same clothing since I was like 15 or so and just bought new pants or some basic stuff. This year I want to get rid of all the clothing I don´t wear, that does not fit me or I do not like the colour or fabric of and MORE IMPORTANT buy new stuff during the year (which I alredy did :3)
#3 work on your body again. so since I´m studying I hadn´t done any sports at all and I cry over my body since I was not allowed to do sports for 3 years … now that I live at home again, I have the horses and the dogs and the forest back again so I will ride a few time a week … I promised myself that a soon as the weather gets better I´ll take a run at least once a week and do some ab-workouts everyday and even if it´s in bed while watching something
#4 be more minimalistic. I had a maaaaajor problem with all the stuff I had to pack when I was moving to the University town … now I had moved back to my hometown and I decluttered eeeevrything. I threw away clothing, drawings, make-up and other items I had but never, rarely use or are just place holders for no reason. Yes okay, I said I don´t want to byu much more make-up … but whooops sorry ( I´ll do a post on all the make-up I have left and bought new) my new room is smaller than the old one because I changed rooms with my brother, so most of my furniture that´s still left in the city-apartment won´t fit in here so I will only get my desk a shelf and some shelfs my dad will build me on the wall where my desk is … for all the books and stuff. also my wardrobe is smaller so I have no other choice than declutter again … I will sale a lot of the things that will arrive at the end of the month especially clothing
#5 be more concentrated in your new university. As I mentioned before I had some deep depression going on in the city I had to live in … btw I never wanted to move there it was just cheaper than travelling by train everyday. Anyway when I have depression I can´t concentrate on learning for exams … I try to keep my mind active with something else like watching a tv show or playing a video game, because as soon as I come back to my problems I´m done for the day and also when you feel uncomfortable you don´t want to stick your head into books … I tried learning at the universitys libary but I failed my Anorganic Chemistry Exam, because I can´t keep calculation formula in my head and I didn´t took a single look at the Industrial Processes of farming different Elements… so it´s kinda my fault but kinda not. In Autumn I´ll hopefully s´tart all over again with a ‚Studium`as we say in German that is more in my interest and not just „ok you do this than you´ll earn a lot of money later“, which was the desperate way I chose what to study after years of research and never finding something that interests me and has a job future.Now I will change from Biosystemtechonlogy/Engingeering to just a Biology ‚Studium‘ in my hometown University.
#6 buy a new laptop. so this i defintly a struggle for me. Okay I have two jobs. I´m a barkeeper for weddings and other celebrations and I take care of the horses from my mums stable in the morning. This means I get a loot more money now than I usually do, and I want to save for a macbook pro. my laptop is about 6 years old now, it works fine I play my RPGs like Skyrim or Assassinscreed on it and it runs fluently but the battery is broken, so it has to be on the power cable all the time… that means I can´t take it to university and sadly the lable does not produce laptops or pcs anymore which brings me to the macbook … since I have a smartphone I have an Iphone. First the Iphone 4 and now the 6 and I´m super satisfied with how it works and everything so why not getting a macbook. Sure on a mac I can´t play videogames but I´ll for sure keep my old sony laptop for Gaming 😀
#7 do more of what makes you happy.I want to paint with my acryl and watercolours again and listen more to music and spend more time with the horses or the dogs outside. And I want to enjoy the time with my friends more… currently I have like 3 friends I reagulary meet. The other ones are just „university friends“ sure it´s fun with them too but we are just kinda dared to spend time together because we see each other nearly everyday. And I´m exicted to meet new people in autumn when university starts all over again for me here in the town where I went to school for 8 years, maybe I´ll find someone really nice or a new best friend. I learned that the people I´ll just talked to randomly are the best I´ve met in the last half year.So if I´ll see a metalhead or someone I might like to hang out with and who might have the same interest … I´ll just give myself a hint again and just talk to them. I know I can do this, because I alredy did it many times … I´m always the one who talkes to someone first or just has enough self-esteem to just go over and speak to a stranger.
#8 show my boyfriend more often that I love him. he is my one and only … and it doesn´t matter that he lives 535 kilometers far away from me. and it doesn´t matter that we have some struggeling right now … because he also has depression and shit like that going on in his life. I love him and I´ll always will. I´m so glad that I´ve met him and I´m so glad that he stand by me trough this hard time and I hope that when the M´era Luna comes up this year that we can celebrate one year of being together! We never really had a special date where we said „ok now we are a couple“ we just kinda had been together foreverafter but I decided to take the 13th of august because that was the first time he called himself my boyfriend while standing next to me. And also 13 is a beautiful number.
#9 Celebrate the wiccan holidays. Samhain was kinda ok last year but it could have been better … definitely. Yule was heartwarming but Imbolc definitely needed more attetion this year … I had my first part of moving at the 2th february… I wrote my Anorganic Chemistry exams that day and after that my dad picked me and my stuff up and we drove home … I unpacked nearly everything … than I had to go to bed because the next morning my mum drove me to the mainstation and I started my trip to bavaria to vistit my boyfriend… but his birthday on the 5th was the most amazing birthday I ever had … even if it wasn´t my own ^^‘ This year my birthday will kinda suck, but thats mostly because we are going to get the rest of my stuff and all the furniture from the city apartment back home and I can´t really calculate the time I have to plan my birthday… I would really like to got to the cinema but I´m not sure if we make it to the movie … I just invite two friends, the third one is on a city trip that weekend. Maybe we grab some pizza and watch some movies in my room, have some drinks and enjoy the evening a little… but that´s kinda shitty when all the boxes are still standing around and take up all the space.
#10 smile more often. I want to smile more often and take more pictures of myself… when I get new clothing I want to film a lookbook video or multiple of them especially from my festival outfits.
i hope that my english is not to bad to read … and that I might have inspired you a little bit ❤